Friday 25 November 2016

Ancient Skies

Time to spread out the tarot cards.
I do it twice a year, in May and October [well, I evidently late a little]. I don't know why I do this, I don't believe in it really or what. I like the art of tarot graphically and sometimes it's fun; you can meditate a little on your own life with the help of the cards... etc. Well, sometimes it gives me the creeps when the cards show my exact present happenings or when something comes true and not always a positive thing... My most horrible experience: Before we knew it I pulled out the 'Death' card a couple of days before the doctor informed us that dad has malignant tumor in his throat… [you know 'Death' means drastic changes in one's life/end of an era but not death] His first operation was success although every doctor doubted it, so one year later when everything seemed somewhat fine I dared to play with the cards again. I pulled out 'Tower' [disaster] about one month before dad passed away…
From then on I usually pull three cards, any number but one… one can be too meaningful so you automatically see more in it, although it's just a card… technically, but I starting to doubt it…

Anyway, I have two kinds of classical tarot decks [Mantegna, Rider], one Greek fortune telling deck, one mermaid deck and one Cigány/Gypsy deck at the moment, but I'm planning to make my own fortune telling cards based on Hungarian symbols. This will not be a tarot but a simple symbol deck. The conception and chosen symbols are ready, only the translation what missing and the graphic design not clear in my head yet, but I'll try.

But till that I made my own spread cloth from felt
What are these embroidered symbols?
Ancient Hungarian [Magyar] Moon, Sun, star, comet… etc. imageries.

Such as many ancient pagan nation, Magyars also had their own sky map. They gave their own imaginary names to the planets, stars, Milky Way and had their own constellations as well. My ancestors had a very vivid and complex imagination about the night sky.

Sun was the most worshipped among the Scythian, Hun and Ottoman tribes/clans [too]. Now, Magyars were more close to the Eurasian Scythian 'horse-riding' and nomadic people in many aspects, but we mixed with too many tribes in the ancient times so not clear at all where we came from exactly… We are an 'enigma nation' without a clear known beginning… But what is sure, ancient Magyars' life too – as pagan, nomadic nation - depended on the light and warm. They celebrated every sunrises and Spring equinoxes. Sun symbolized life and truth. They called their leaders [prince or the spiritual leader as well] by the title 'kende' or 'kündü' what means "son of Sun". They saw the sky as 'égi frigy' [lit. means 'sky matrimony'] where the Sun has the male/husband and the Moon has the female/wife principle [as in many other pagan culture] whom are inseparable till the world is world…

The golden stag
The most famous Hungarian mythical leading creature, the "Miraculous Deer" is the symbol of rebirth, renewal and the Sun.
"According to Hungarian legend, preserved in the 13th century chronicle Gesta Hunnorum et Hungarorum by Simon of Kéza [Kézai Simon], while out hunting, the brothers Hunor and Magor saw a miraculous white – later described as golden - stag. They pursued the animal, but it always stayed ahead of them, leading them westward into Levédia, where they married two princesses and founded the Huns and Hungarian people. One of the main reasons for claims of religious and cultural ties between Huns and Hungarians is the stag and the brothers Hunor and Magor." Wikipedia
The stag is symbolizing the starry sky for a long time ago for many Eurasian and some Native American tribes as well.

Although we were a Sun-worshipper nation, I'm personally rather a Moon maniac. That's why I embroidered the Moon in the center and the Sun among the other symbols. Sun is definitely not my favourite… especially on Summer *cough*
But that doesn't mean Moon was neglected. Not at all. As pagan nation they respected the 'ancient mother'/female principle as well what Moon symbolized to them. They called it by the name Ezüst Boldogasszony [Silver Happy/Merrywoman? or Blessed Lady], Babba Istenanya [Beautiful Goddess Mother or Mother God] or Babba Mária [Beautiful Mary]. Some ethnic groups in Transylvania still calls the Moon as 'babba' [beautiful/fair] or Babba Mária like the csángó people for example. The only difference that today Babba Mária is rather the Holy Mary then the ancient Moon goddess [who was also Mária/Mary]. So in the churches the Babba Mária statues are now simply Virgin Mary statues… shame.
After the Magyar tribes settled down in the Carpathian Basin [well, actually they invaded it I know that... history is history, there is nothing pure in it.] and later our first king Stephen I [who officially founded the Hungarian state] brought the Christianity into the country [what was sadly or not but necessary in those times, otherwise we would vanished into the thin air with the other nomadic tribes and we would never had a real country/state...], our ancient symbols and knowledge started to fade away along with the ancient strength [in soul] what really united us. Later the bigoted "symbol inquisitors" started to erase the ancient solar symbols too for good. They forbade the use of every non-Christian 'pagan symbols'. Leastwise they tried to…
Thanks to one of our famous 20th century anthropologist István Kiszely's research work, who found these solar symbols, what survived the destruction
[Photo from kiszely.hu]

The first five is clear, I think. The others are probably various stars and comet imageries.

Where he found them? On folk artifacts like embroidered tablecloths and pillow cases, painted or carved wooden furnitures; they were secretly disguised as floral and animal folk patterns. So the brave ones whom saved at least one precious thing from our ancient past were the village people whom I always despise… ~Hmm my mistake

So, while Kiszely found symbols, some eager ethnographers like Arnold Ipolyi, Lajos Kálmány, István Lázár, Ferenc Gönczi, Ede Wigand Toroczkai and János Jankó found something else; Hungarian names of the stars and constellations hidden in folk tales and old villagers' memories. It's funny that three of them was relited with religion although they searched our pagan past… Ipolyi was bishop, Kálmány was priest while Lázár was a monk. Interesting…
Beside linguistic and ethnological researchings, it helped this 'star collection' the book "Égigérő fa" [Skyhigh tree] by János Nagy Berze too. He collected in his book as many ancient Hungarian legends and myths as he could, what contains earlier folk names for certain stars and constellations. 

Modern researcher who carries on the work is László Mándoki who is working at Janus Pannonius Museum in Pécs. His major works were the books "Az Orion csillagkép a magyarságnál" ["The Orion constellation for the Hungarian people" or something like this] and the "Herman Ottó Csillagnévgyűjtései" [Ottó Herman's names collection of the stars]. I don't know who is this Ottó Herman, but no problem because I never heard about the previous people as well except Kiszely and Arnold Ipolyi… but always good to know something new. I will search for those books.

For centuries even the simple
Hungarian peasant on the field knew the ancient star names and followed every little sky phenomenas. They interweaved this knowledge into the folk tales and myths and was remained in their belief as well. The star names are all about human problems, joys, belief and hope. Every ancient wiseness of my ancestors is on the sky, I just had to search for it…

The meaning of the Magyars' tradition and spiritual culture was the connect with the ancestors and with the ethereal beings. Their ideological traditions are the proof. For example: They believed that the sky has 7 layers. ['7' is a very mystical number in Hungarian folklore and belief and was also common in other Eastern cultures as well.] They believed that the sky is the home of our mighty heroes, gods and legendary figures and the Milky Way is what connects this sky realm with the Earth.

László Nagyváradi [finally a name I know] - who is the astronomer of the University of Pécs - identified 128 constellations and stars according that folk 'star collection'. He said it's interesting that Magyars and later the Hungarian village people as well not only imagined their own constellations but they could see visually even a single star. For example, they called the Sirius as Sánta Kata [Limping Cate]. They associated to this very shiny star a picture of a girl who stepped into a scythe [it simply symbolizes the tragedy of a girl whom probably someone knew once]. Or there was the Kalász csillag [Wheatear Star] what looked even more shiny and yellow when the harvest season began.

Some other examples

Venus had many names: Alkony Csillag [Nightfall star], Esthajnalcsillag [Twilight star, we still call by this name today], Vacsoracsillag [Evening or Supper star], Álomhozócsillag [Dreambringer star], Hajnalcsillag [Dawn star]… etc.

Milky Way also was called by many names: Hajnali hasadék [Dawn Ravine], Éjszakai Szivárvány [Night Rainbow], Tündérek Útja [Fairies' road], Hadak Útja [Armys’ road], Lelkek Útja [Souls' road], Tejút [Milky Way, the same as in English], Cigányút [Gipsy road]… etc.

Orion and its surrounding = Kaszás telke [Scythe-man's Land], Óriás gázlója [Giant's Wading]
Corona Borealis = Ruzsáskert [Rosegarden], Mária kertje [Mary's Garden]
Ursa Minor = Szarvas nyomdoka [Deer Track], Kis Göncöl [Little Göncöl]
Ursa Major = Göncölszekér [Göncöl's Chariot, still use this name instead of 'Great Bear']
Messier 45 in the Taurus = Fiastyúk [Hen – who is just hatching eggs], Hetes [Seventh]
Pleiades = Kaptár [Hive]
Sagittarius = Koldusszekér [Pauper Chariot]
a star in the Andromeda = Hálócsillag [Net star]
Alcor = Ostoros [Whipper]
Hyades = Méhkas [Beehive]
Saturnus = Székelyek csillaga [Székelys' Star]
Jupiter = Magyarok csillaga [Magyars' Star]
the stars of the Swan = Vezér [Leader], Hadnagy [Lieut], Had vezető [High Commander], Három hadnagy [Three Commanders], Lövőcsillag [Shooter star], Bajnokcsillag [Champion star], Sereghajtó [Lagman]
Berenice's hair = Tatárdúlás [Tatar ravage]
etc.

Stars what represented emotions: Szerencse csillag [Lucky star], Kisasszonyok öröme [Young Lady's Joy], Bánatcsillag [Sorrow star], Elátkozott csillag [Cursed star], Magános csillag [Lonely star], Szegény ember szerencséje [Poor man's Luck]… etc.

We had…
Szerelemcsillag [Love star], Levegőcsillag [Air star], Tengercsillag [Sea star], Szőkecsillag [Fair star], Álmatlancsillag [Sleepless star], Sellőcsillag [Mermaid star], Aranyhajúcsillag [Golden Hair star], Sárkány koronája [Dragon's Crown], Boszorkány szeme [Witch's Eyes], Tündérhölgy palotája [Fairy Lady's Castle], Árvalány pillantása [Look Of An Orphan Girl]… etc.

The ancient Magyars lived and enjoyed their life by the changes of the sky and nature. More harmonical life I think than living on star gossips like most of the people nowadays in Hungary too. In my point of view that is a very poor life… 

Well, let's see what cards I've got this time…
It's creepy again… ~Hmm, we'll see… But one for sure; enough from the negative happenings!! This Autumn was a s. Did I tell you that I have dreams about Aqua that she is still hopping happily in my room…? I can't tell how I miss her… I can't endure seeing that little white urn on the shelf. Spring is soo far yet…


„csillagtalan setét éjjel” = starless dark night
 
Good Day and Have a nice Weekend!/Szép napot és jó hétvégét!

Sources
kiszely.hu, szabadonebredok.info, csillagaszat.hu, Hungarian Mythology by Arnold Ipolyi and some things from head

Monday 21 November 2016

New Shoes And Clothes To Cheer Myself Up

This time I made a bigger shopping because beside some Winter things I wanted to buy a dress too for the theatre.
I go to the theatre once in a month and I'm bored with just to wear the same trousers I wear on weekdays with another black blouse. Although usually I dress as less feminine as I just can without wearing any make up [so the 2 years old little girl next door always calls me 'uncle', although her mother corrects her everytime we meet that I'm still female...], I want to enjoy being a woman at least on cultural programs... I like dressing casual to feel myself confy, but sometimes it's good to wear something feminine too, but not in the workplace of course, due to I have to work with two unintelligent pigs + 1 antifeminist ladybug...

Well, I bought a dress from Killstar [again] but then I saw another beautiful thing too, a maxi black skirt I always wanted.
I like that Killstar gives titles to the clothes. This dress is called "Lestat". No, I definitely not bought this because I love Anne Rice books that much… Hahaha

Then this is the long skirt [without end]
I loooove the esoteric pattern! 

Other things, a knitted sweater with Ouija board on it, I think it's funny 

From Minga London I ordered this sweater with the trivial slogan
When will they stop! When? WHEN?! *sigh*


Shoes…
Everyone has its own clothing 'thing' what particularly like. Mine is shoes...
I have only six pair of shoes at home but neither one is a normal one. Three black platform boots [5-7-10 cm high], one flat 60's style, one werewolf patterned high-heels I never wore and I just don't know why [from IronFist] and one
70's style 'larger then my feet so I cannot wear it at all' Anna Sui high-heels [from a second hand shop]…
Now this is the newest
This is from Y.R.U. and I saved money for months just to buy this for the Autumn... Now if you are younger than me DO NOT FOLLOW my irresponsible example saving the precious money for a pair of shoes! *cough*

I saw this on a site [Attitude Clothing] a couple of month ago and I completely fell in love. You can put anything into the plastic part, isn't it great fun? [Don't say a word I already know… *waving hand*]
I thought about putting gummy bears, gummy worms or silk flowers in it. Then I searched on Google what are the biggest ideas. Well, gummy candies and silk flowers… maybe because those somewhat silent things. I would hate too making loud noise on the street with every steps…
So I bought some silk flowers in white, deep red and black so the shoes will be in complete match-in-color with the Lestat dress and my blood red lipstick... Fantastic! My life has meaning again! Hahaha
Well, that's all for today.


Good Day!/Szép napot!

Thursday 17 November 2016

Me, The Local Celebrity… Oh My



Sorry if I disturbed you with my personal cryings again on the other day… but sometimes I feel I need to write out the anger from myself or one day I will just blow up… and this is not just a blog to me but some kind of therapy as well [anyhow cheaper than a psychologist].

This week is frightfully silent in the office due to I'm ignoring that old fart because I'm bored with his infantile things, who is now nervous because I'm ignoring him… What is this man, kindergarten? You are 60 years old, time to grow up! ~Alle alle!
About last week incident: Relax, nothing serious but due to he usually behaves like a cavalier gorilla [with the same odor] I was surprised that he is that talented that he can behave like a wrathful grizzle as well [with the same odor]…
He "just" yelled at me and mocked me as a woman for about 10 minutes in the middle of an important meeting before important people over some paper I scanned wrongly, althought I said them a hundred times that the scanner works badly from almost two months, but my words against him? Please. So I just stood there, I wanted to say something in my defence but he shouted "Shut th f. up I speak!" [?!] so I shut it because he is a senior and there were many other people… After that day I'm not in the mood to communicate with him. He is not even my boss, who dislikes him anyway so no problem... I think I just deeply respect his wife, who is a silent 40 kg skinny old lady who smokes at least 1 box of cigarettes a day...
I don't know what the f. was with him on that day; maybe he was drunk again [as usual] or he is just as much 'nobody' that he must show how "big" he is on an important meeting… Boss is on holiday, maybe he thought he will be the tough guy now… Anyhow he is a loser… Go to hell old fart and for everyone sakes have a bath just for once! Thanks.
Did I mention that beside the old fart and jerk boss there is a third shiny person in our office room? A 50 years old self-described 'anti-feminist' [Wtf???] woman who is still living in her own bubble world and hasn't the slightest idea what's really happening in the world, I think a 10 years old knows more. I don't know where she grew up maybe in a rabbit hole in Marshmallow town in Pinky Land, anywhere but on Earth for sure…
What a company, eh? Ok, I know I also have my own headshot but seeing them I think I'm the most close to what they call 'normal'…
Or not.
Why is that, that there are funny and open people in the other office rooms but all the boring idiots are here in ours? … This is karma, definitely karma… Why are they punish me when I can't remember what did I do wrong in my past lives?????
But I think I must thank the old fart that he freaked me out, otherwise I never had the braveness cut away my hair at last… This Buddhist thinking does good for me.

I never wore extreme hairstyles. Since I was a teen I just grew and grew my hair, sometimes I cut a little bit from the end, once or twice I had fringe but that is all and I don't think red is an extreme color nowadays as well. Sometimes I went to a hairdresser but because the family hairdresser is old, any new style I showed her she just did the good old 80's… After a couple of arguments with her that I hate perm and highlights and if she not mind I'll say what color I want on my head and that is not blond for sure, I skipped going to that hairdresser ever again or anywhere else… anyhow it's an unnecessary expense to me.
I loved my mermaid hair but honestly I planned to cut down the whole for a while, because it needed too much care, shampoo not to mention the 5 packs of paint. Too much time and expensive. Honestly I didn't care about how will I look, I was angry so I did it without thinking… But it's comfortable and I can breathe at last...
So everyone in this town who knew me since I was a kid or a while just got a shock on this week; from the bakery lady to the snack bar waitress, from the herb shop woman to the pharmacy lady, from the neighbours to the postman, from the librarian to mother's old friends not to mention the Office. They just all repeated the same 5 words: What…? Where…? How…? but… noo… then finished it with an "It's nice, but…" The funniest comment was my friends's from England when she saw my photos on facebook: "Jesus Where is your hair? Did you sell it?"
Today afternoon I will meet with her sister who is working in the cinema and she is a big fan of long hairs… Can't wait what I'll get… Oh god… I think I'm dead *nervous laugh*
But the hell with my hair because… BECAUSE… BECAUSE today is the Hungarian premiere of the Fantastic Beasts with Mr. gorgeous red haired Wunderbaaaare!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *fanfare and triumph* After five looooooong years finally another movie! I can't wait the 17pm and the cinema popcorn!!!!

Good Day!!!!!!!!!!!

….

~Öhh sorry I'm a little bit overexited… *cough* I go chill down a bit… I have to endure four more hours in this pighole till the movie… 。゜(`Д´)゜。 *baby crying sound*

Tuesday 15 November 2016

"Bye Bye My Old Friend"

On Sunday I cut down my hair…

The prequel:
Last week was terrible. I was sick with my f. bile again and the old fart colleague really freaked me out and went too far this time yelling at me like that just because I'm an assistant and woman… so I cannot call him on normal name from now on, he calls me by titles too what I hate so I just do the same and he is disgusting anyway… I was totally furious all week… I hate this job, I
'm angry all the times because the boss and him just f. annoying, not only to me but to many colleagues as I see. No wonder. Boss is an egoistic-stuck up-homophobic jerk, this old fart is a pervert crap although he always calls himself a "decent catholic family man" Bahahhahah Moron. There is only one decent being in this office room, the ficus in the corner… If that poor plant could talk... or me…
So last week was a piece of s. and I sat on my bed on Sunday morning thinking about I need a drastic change immediately or I will go crazy. There is no view for a new job now and I cannot chop up the old fart too because of "human rights" blah blah although would be a great pleasure, you know it
's almost Winter, the meat is expensive, the freezer is empty… so I grabbed my sciccors, the rest is history.
R.I.P. dear long hair. I won
't miss you. You was dancing on my nerves too…
  

Good Day!/Szép napot!